Thursday, August 16, 2012

goodbye agnes

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This was Agnes in the prime of her life. She was such a big and gorgeous british shorthair girl.

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Her father came from my breeding and I was so happy to buy her. She did well at cat-shows, she was meant to have kittens but she got two stillborn and couldn't care less about that. Later she got an uterus inflammation and was emergency neutered. She really didn't care about that either. After all, kittens are such a nuisance, they take up time and space and energy.

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She was a solitaire. Herself enough. Eating, sleeping, cuddling - with humans only of course - was her main interests in life. Other cats were mainly a bother, who tended to come between her and her main interests in life.

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She wasn't too fond of Malte either, he was tolerated, but mainly a bother also. But his food was nice. He never dared make a fuss about that, or chase her, keep her in Malte-order - like he tends to do with most of the others, when they don't comply to his set of rules - she always ignored or slapped him if he tried.

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She hasn't been herself, really, since January last year. But it wasn't anything obviously noticable in a veterinary examination, the blood samples showed nothing, her weight was the same. Earlier this year she slowly began loosing weight, but she continued to be her-past-year-self. I promised myself once - after a heartbreaking ordeal with a beloved cat in 2002 - to never to let an older cat go through painful examinations, surgery and so forth since, through experience, the prognosis for recovery most always is mirthless. Let them enjoy the time left, keep a close eye on them and be brave when they day come to say goodbye.

Today was that day for Agnes. She was only nine years old, too soon for this, I was reluctant, even though I knew it was the right thing to do. Her condition had rapidly declined. By the looks of her the veterinarian assured me it was the right thing to do, quite likely it was a tumour who caused this. Another one to say the last goodbye to. She peacefully feel asleep in my arms.

Agnes, I'm sure the grass is even greener on the other side, the food glorious and the other cats no bother at all, it has been a pleasure to have you in the family, to know you. Solitaire.

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12 comments:

Erica said...

Oh, Pia. I am so very sorry for your loss. No doubt Agnes lived a very full life with you and your fur family, even if she mostly just tolerated them. My heart goes out to you.

DahnStarr said...

May Agnes find a nice warm lap to hold her on the other side. She was blessed to have you as her family here.

The Elephant's Child said...

I am so so sorry. It tears us apart when they leave, even when it is the right thing (the only thing) we can do. Sending sympathy in spades.

Angella said...

I'm So sorry for you.....My pets are my children, so my heart hurts for you. She is a gorgeous kitty. I admire your strength in letting her go. You're in my thoughts. Xx

Wendy said...

Ah, Pia. Sending you love and comforting thoughts. You wrote a really beautiful post for Agnes. x

Anyusha said...

So sorry to hear that, Pia. I can feel with you in every word you wrote. This is the last way to show love to our cats.

aforkful said...

A beautiful tribute, Pia, to a beautiful, beautiful cat. So sorry that you've lost her, but it sounds as though she had a wonderful 9 years with you. X

Sue said...

I'm so sorry for you. Reading this nearly breaks my heart. I know what it feels like, lost my 10 year old cat last year and I still miss her.

Lisen said...

Åh va fint skrivet. Inte ett öga torrt här...:/

Fuzzy Tales said...

Pia, I'm so sorry. She was a beautiful girl and 9 definitely is too young. My Annie was only about 10 (birthdate unknown) when I lost her in February 2011, much the same, no "apparent" cause, though I have my own ideas now. Oh, how our hearts ache! There's no such thing as true healing, we just adapt to their absences.

Godspeed to Agnes, I hope her spirit is running free now.

Julianna said...

I've been away... And just found this... So sorry, my friend. A horrible thing-- she was a beautiful girl.

Beth said...

So sorry for your loss, Pia. She aws a beautiful girl.......

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