I wish I could say that it has been a grand day in celebration of that distinguished name, but alas with this past weekend's blizzards, freezing temperatures and less than competent people running the Swedish (especially in Stockholm) public transportation system I've spent more than a good portion of the day waiting for the c-trains. No matter how sensible I think I've dressed that has left me freezing to the bones. And in a grumpy mood.
For all sort of reasons really, apart from the appalling public transportation system-problems there's a very distinct feeling of a very displeasing (understatement magna) combination of resistance and uninterest to actually let me use my education/skills/intellect and be of use to the organisation at 'the place'.
It's destructive on many levels and no matter how constructively I point that out, the people who could make a difference don't seem to care. So my days I spend going from being quite angry to try and ignore to being sad. I wish it wasn't true, but I know it too well, this also is an organisation where the master suppression techniques flourish on several levels. It's despicable and now I'm quite desperately trying to find a solution where I can get what I want. How I don't know. I just know that this is not where I should be. Or that I should spend my days doing brainless tasks that any doofus could do. When I'm so much more, in so many ways.
Ah well, at least the sun shone and the skies were painted deep blue for a while today on this Pia day. And somewhere behind green windows, blue doors and red walls I'm sure there's room to be just me and noone else ~
Happy Pia Day!
ReplyDeleteWow, that red/green/blue house - it is magical!
ReplyDeleteSorry to hear you are having a tricky work time again... that feeling of not being valued in the workplace is really not good, is it? Such a shame your talents and knowledge are not being utilised ... bad management has a lot to answer for!
I hope things improve very soon,
Happy days to you (and fulfilled ones!)
Denise x
thank you, fleegan!
ReplyDeletethanks for a kind and thoughtful comment, as always, denise. bad management flourish. and sucks. and even if things did look better for a while, now 7 months later, not much has changed, only the place in which things basically sucks all over again... sigh. yes i wish for fulfillment, how i do...