Monday, October 18, 2021

the end of beloved zigne


Deeply loved, forever missed - darling Zigne.

Luddkolt’s Zigne Shandy, redspotted British Shorthair -

2011-12-15 — 2021-10-13

It happened so quickly, so unexpectedly. From the last shivering days of August, and the first vet visit, to 1,5 months later, and she was gone. I’m absolutely gutted.

She was one of those truly special souls. Simply gorgeous from the inside out. She was such a happy lovebug that never brought anything but joy, inspiration and comfort. 

Just like a few selected predecessors, she was and will forever be a true star in my very own hall of fame of cats that over the years have touched my heart in a special, magical way. That bond is gone, even if the memories live on. And I’m crushed. 

When the pandemic started they were 9. Now there are only 4 left, and the house, and my life, feels weird and empty. 

One of her very last enjoyable delights was sharing whipped coconut cream with me. The next day she didn’t really have any appetite, I tried to get her to eat that special, high energy food again, but to continue with that force feeding after the ups and downs experienced during her, what turned out to be, last three weeks just didn’t feel right. 

Nor did taking her to the vet a fourth time and put her through more procedures, just because I really really didn’t want to lose her so soon. She continued to drink water for a couple of days. And shortly after that she feel asleep snuggled up with Prunella, the oldest of them all at 16, who seems to have a sixth sense when someone isn’t feeling well. 

October, seriously, you must do better from here on, please. I am so drained and exhausted from this past 1,5 year of bad news, sorrow and deaths. I am well beyond tired of feeling this hapless and sad. Meditating doesn’t really help anymore. And honestly, feeling gratitude for the good things gets more and more difficult for every bad thing that keeps piling up like a never ending story. 

You were so very loved Zigne, I am so grateful for the nine wonderful years we got together, but we should have had more time. We really should. Send my love to the kitties that went before you, and to Malte, loaf dog extraordinaire.


Poppy Q said...

Oh Pia I am so sorry that you lost your special girl. I know that you gave her a wonderful life full of love and helped to guide her at the end. Sweetest hugs to you.

Julie and poppyq

John Bellen said...

I didn't know Zigne, but she sounds like she was the most perfect of cats. Loss is heart-breaking but when it comes so fast upon other losses, there is no time to heal. I'm very sorry that this has happened. Godspeed, Zigne.

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