my birthday 2026

2025/26 has been the roughest of year/s. And yes, I do know I am far from alone feeling this. When you think things can’t get worse it does.

But this blog is from my point of view, and this is my birthday. So I cry if I want to. 

And I have never felt so depleted as I do now. Spending my birthday preparing the final details shutting down my business. It is just utterly 💔 I couldn’t keep the business going and get a steady income from it any longer. So yes, obviously I can now put the “failed business woman to my CV” - this was not what I had envisioned in 2012. 

You know how the saying goes something like, when one door is closing another one opens. Currently I can’t see any openings, any viable opportunities. Life seems quite pointless and meaningless. Truth be told. 

A steady, reasonable income is a must in this capitalistic world we have created. And I would suggest most of us do not thrive in it, slaves to the wages as we are.

I have had a mostly very good life, with ups and downs like everyone else. But now I am so very tired of the continued  struggling and short term solutions. Every. darn. month. This was neither what I envisioned in my original life goals mind map. How pointless was that Master Degree, when this was all it accomplished?

Over the years I’ve become a master of seeing and appreciating the little pockets of joy in life - which I suppose this blog might be a testament of - but it was far too long (a gazillion years) since I had those long, heartfelt proper laughs I once upon a time had regularly and effortlessly. A faint smile is all I can (rarely) muster today.

In a world that is getting crazier and crazier by the day. Or to be honest stupidier and stupidier by the minute. Education, science and facts are more important than ever, yet the patronizing disdain from the willfully ignorant and hateful have certainly blossomed. 

Happy birthday to me. At least I got a fairly good vegan cream cake, the renowned Swedish Princess Cake, this year, with my failed business dealings today. Where does one go from here?

Where is the meaning hiding?